Well A throw a shot directly to my heart.
And it wasn't a golden arrow, it was an iron one.
Well, brokenhearted would be an understatement! don't you think.

Fidelis to my promise to G-d, I'll stop searching.
There won't be any more desire on my part to fullfill the desire of having a partner for life.
It would the the short but intense moments lived with A that I would remember when I'll be in need of it.
This is a "Non plus ultra"

Have to rewire everything again.

It just me, myself and I all over again.