Blue again.
Bad
A big one.

Wrote an email to blue.
Feel better.
but only while I'm thinking of him.
Wish I could think of him always.
But then probably I would fell in love.
And that's only a dream.

Feel lonely too.
Want to go out.
into the night.
into the darkness of a pub, a disco. whatever there is music, alcohol, drugs and hot bodies.
and go into that darkness
and lie in their beds
with their bodies.

May be I should read some cavafis tonight.
It always sooths me.

I will do that.
I will read Cavafis till I fell asleep.