I'm still unsure.
Part of me love and hate T. at the same time.
Miss to be with him.
And at the same time revolt on the thought of him touching me.
Wish he could go away, as he used to do, leaving me alone.
I would love that.
being far from his influence.
where I can be free of his love.
Poor E, now I'm derating him, just because I don't want to be with anyone.
What should I do.
What else can be done.

I meet Junetp today.
He was cute
A big man, very hairy. a bear.
Wanted to hugh him so bad.
Strange, he's as I had imagen him to be.
Good for prescience.
Seems God always is taking care I'm never left alone.

This is an interesting article G. plots

E slept today at home.
It was a strange thing.
Couldn't handle
Spurts of man milk over my body.
So empty.
What's love anyway.