Interlude

I confessed JG that I miss him.
He laughed with that spurious laugh of him, the one he uses so oftenly.
I felt empty.

At night I sended him a very cheesy text message:
"God rarely grant me what I want unless I need it, he may think you would be of help"

He answered with "Listen "enjoy the silence" "
that's a song of Depeche Mode:


Words like violence
Break the silence
Come crashing inInto my little world
Painful to me
Pierce right through me
Can’t you understand
Oh my little girl
All I ever wanted
All I ever needed
Is here in my arms
Words are very unnecessary
They can only do harm
Vows are spokenTo be broken
Feelings are intense
Words are trivial
Pleasures remain
So does the pain
Words are meaningless
And forgettable
All I ever wanted
All I ever needed
Is here in my arms
Words are very unnecessary
They can only do harm
Enjoy the silence

The meaning eludes me.

I'm going for free love free of atachtments.

That means that I can't let myself go with him.

I just can't risk falling in love

Let's search other rivers, flow in other streams, meet other minds.

If he's one of the missing parts of Alexander's soul. Then I'm always going to have him.

My sweet JG.

I just don't want to let you go.