Well I had just returned from J&J's apartment.
I'm totally dead, I guess I had fucked tonight for all this weeks
without having sex keeping myself to G.

Well, going to sleep, had enough sex for one day.

Meet this guy at the chat
He arrived just after B left.
Call him R.
Handsome guy, about my age, my size, cute ass and dick.
I put a movie in the computer why we talked
He started to get excited while with his left hand started to rub my cock that was already hard.
I started to rub his.
We started to kiss and then I take my jeans off, and he did the same, it was a nice uncut cock
as big as J's cock.
We started frolicking and then he asked me for a condom.
That was a surprise I thought the man was a bottom.
He sit in the bed and asked me to sit over him.
I started to ride him slow at first, it was very big and the he started to pound his hips against my ass
fuck I was holding to the bed's frame as if it were to dear life.
Then he rolled me down to the bed, and we fucked spoon like till he came.
Man, and I still have to go to J&J's apartment!! I'm a fucking sex addict.

Meet B at the Chat
God, he's cute.
He's from Colombia and returns to Bogota on Sunday
34, very handsome, near my height, cute, divorced, one child.
Has such a nice ass, I pound it and pound it as he impaled himself in my prick.
He really looked sex starved, what a nice fuck.
And his colombian accent, hope to have him again when he returns.
He can be an option, it's a pitty he's only bottom.

Well, product of my anger against G's behaviour.
And my lack of sex altogether, and following J's advice jejeje

Tonight I really behaved baaaadd.

G didn't return calls today.
L told me he's pissed off because me not arriving on time to the park.
Go figure!!

Anyways, I'm tired and I'm hurt.
As O says, how long I would be trying, what guarantees that once J is back
He just dump me and go back to him.

J wants me to meet a friend of him.
It's very handsome, let's see how it evolves.

About G, well, guess that's over. Even If we try to fix our relationship as a friendship of sorts, I'm really hurt.
He's behaving as T once.
There seems not to be difference among them.

Meet BF again
We fucked near an hour.
A lot of noise and sweat.

BF has a nice ass and a very big dick.
We slept till noon, then went to have some lunch.

What have G in his head?!
sometimes I really thing they deserve each other.
One for being an asshole and the other one for being a queer.

This guy emails are so shallow
He must be made of plastic jajaja
But then,
A plastic G is in love with :-(

But then,

Tonight I'm fucked up.
G let me hanging again.
Don't return calls, even shutted off his apartment lights
Maybe R is right, he's seeing someone else.

Well, good for him.
This boy is going to find another love.
Something not so much complicated, my life is complicated enough.

J & G have a sex party tonight but I don't want to go
I'm full of rage because of G's behaviour but, I'm not in the mood for lot of uncomplicated sex.

J&O want to take me out tonight so I stop thinking of G.
That's sounds more healthy.

So, dear readers,
What do you think I should do?!

mmmm
BF :-P
Woof, at least I had some.

Today I chatted with J & E
E wants to know still if I had sex with someone while he was at Las Tablas.
J wants me to write more experiences.
Let's see tonight.
Let's hunt for the pleasure of writting.

How do I balance between being true to my feelings and at the same time true to my nature?!
Love over lust.

This situation is triggering Hyde more and more.
I wonder if I would reach the point Hyde would be forever present.

Well G said he doesn't love me, he doesn't even sure he will someday.
End of the affair.

On Saturday he called.
Wanted me to go with him to El Valle.

A normal weekend. We had fun, we played, we chatted, we hugged, we slept together.

On sunday we went to C's home. Seemed he disliked the comments of R about he and he's
other guy and from then he just kept away from me and R, that hurt me a lot an triggered Hyde,
so I became bitchy and rather cynical the rest of the evening.

When we arrived the city he asked me if I wanted to stay at my home or his.
I went to his, help him take up the stuff he brought from El Valle and then kiss him in the cheek goodbye.

In person he was the same as always.
By phone, sounds gloomy.
What produced such change on him?!
:-(

"No te necesito para ser feliz". says:
buen0 de que lo esta sonsacando lo esta haciendo hace tiempo, incluso te esta utilizando a ti para sus tareas.. pero ese cambio repentino no me gusta... hay algo mas en el fondo..
"No te necesito para ser feliz". says:
mira la verdad es que es molestoso vivir tu situacion.. o esas amarrado o estas libre pero no colgando..un consejo??
"No te necesito para ser feliz". says:
no lo llames mas en las noches ni en las ma�anas.. que sea el quien te llame.. y cuando te reclame porque ya no lo buscas se lo dices... mira gina.. yo quiero dejarte tu espacio.. no es mi intension ponerte entre la espada y la pared..
"No te necesito para ser feliz". says:
yo cuando me meti contigo sabia a que iba y que mi lucha seria la de ganarme tu cari�o.. sin embargo tu me has puesto un sin numero de obstaculos que me han dejado muy triste y sin fuerzas para seguir esta lucha.
"No te necesito para ser feliz". says:
Yo se de la existencia del colombiano y no me importo compartir contigo y no me importa seguir compartiendo contigo, tal vez con la esperanza de que algun dia me veas de otra manera...
"No te necesito para ser feliz". says:
esto es un juego de azar.. apuesto todo lo que tengo con la esperanza de ganar.. y sino gano, pues pierdo todo y me quedo sin nada....
Define God says:

"No te necesito para ser feliz". says:
tu has decidido que antes que yo haga mi apuesta completa pierda, pues te respeto eso.. cuando necesites de mi compa�ia, cuenta conmigo.. te quiero mucho y lo menos que quiero hacer es ponerte en un dilema...
"No te necesito para ser feliz". says:
aqui estare para cuando me necesites.. pero recuerda que el tiempo borra heridas y no dejes que pase mucho tiempo..
"No te necesito para ser feliz". says:
dile asi.. y listo.. a ver que pasa.. pero mejor estar libre que colgando como estas ahora..
"No te necesito para ser feliz". says:
no te parece?
Define God says:

Mutism.
Solitude.
Pain.
Sarah sings:
"What you never know won't hurt you"
Gino is hurting me
"What you never know won't lie"
He's lying.
"What you never know never desert you"
He's desserting

Feel lonely.
Sad.
I have so big hopes with him.
But then
Just like every one.
You can't make someone else loves you.
Feel so deeply sad.
It was just like Azury's
one day it was
next gone.
"What you never know, never, never know"
"What you never know"
"What you never know won't hurt you"
"What you never know won't lie"
"What you never know won't desert you"
"What you never know, unless you try"
How many times I should try.
Jaime said that I should never give the one hundred percent, that I should keep something, that our little heart just grow tougher and tougher with time, and that was a reality I have to be prepared for.

Feel so sad.
Why he just say goodbye boy, thanks for the memoirs.

Good bye Gino, thanks for the memoirs.

:-(