What I'm going to do about CNV??
I wonder
I know working hard I would be able to comply
And shut the fuck off of them
But then, who lives.

Maybe it's a blessing I'm having no sex
using this agressiveness against the proyect.
How they dare!!

Let's taste some blood.

So many thinks are happening
right now that I hadn't time to update the journals.
That's bad
It's a reflection of myself, as I left the journals off so I left my life.

I hadn't had sex in a while.
Since meeting G.
That's bad
My testosterone levels must be peaking
I feel agressive and predatory all the time
Full of rage
Want to have anyone in four and fuck the life off of them.
I need to have sex very soon.

Today G and I talked about that.
It was cool, we chatted and "chatted" jejeje.
I like the sincerity among us.

But it turn out that the task I was helping him doing wasn't his
It was for that asshole that has his heart broken.
That had put me down and blue.

But then, who lives.

A definition of Love:

Enter G
Handsome at his 48 years old.
With that vulnerability look.
His calm ways, his smooth talk, simply laughs.
And I enjoy every sound he does
I enjoy walking with him
I enjoy talking with him
I enjoy just watching him
I enjoy doing stuff together
Walking life together.
That's love?

K's commentary: G is already in love with someone else. and you know how strong is that feeling, he would never be completely yours. That relationship must end for our own sake.

A definition of Lust:

Enter A
Handsome, lean, well endowed, athletic.
Lips so kissable my own got lost on them.
I do love someone
But for half an hour
my whole body
was in communion
with this stranger.
That's lust.

There�s nothing else going
only love
love for the ones I don�t
Love for the ones I do
I do love G
but love is such a strange thing
and in my hands
it�s so hard to tell
what�s love
what�s passion
what�s lust

A
Woooff

J.E.
Wow

Sometimes
I want to sniff the biggest mound of cocaine.
Sometimes
I want to take that one pill of XTC
Sometimes
I want the music fill the void
Sometimes
I want to forget

I hadn't write in a while
many things are happening simultaneously in my life.
I had meet someone
I'll call him G.

G. is going to be very special.
It's a path I want to take
But the choice
is not mine
is his.

Love is no game
Rules still the same
I love you
Just hold me
I'm ready to play

I love you
just hold me
I'm ready to play
T.N.T. for the brain