I had just seen the most incredible piece of commercial haha. It's a
catalog for men's clothes interactively atop an adult movie! Amazing!
D and I have 5 months going now, I'm opening myself to him in discret steps, but there's nothing as steps in love affairs. If I would only be sure of his motives. Sometimes he seems distant, sometimes he feel completely engaged, and then, those calls in the middle of the night.
Doubts.
Anyways, it seems his efervescence had diminish, not sure If I'm the guilty one of that, working late and really into not much fun since we have to keep quiet because my roommate. However is not as intense. Part of the pizzaz this relationship was giving me is fading, giving that I was willing to sacrifice my catcher side because D being such an avid bottom would keep me happily in the pitcher side for a long time. But now he seems to be more unwilling, maybe its really hurting him or, well, as my little bro said, maybe he's getting it somewhere else.
That thought sadened me every time I hear his cell ringing and he won't asnwer, nor he won't tell who was calling. I wonder if I just must start looking somewhere else or just confront him and if it is the case end the relationship. I know males are prone to lie in order to not feel guilty but I'm feed up with that.
However I'm seeing as positive being away of the locals, since D don't share my love for nights outs and he's always in saving mode I'm house grounded most of the time. I do miss my freedom, I miss just going out, have a few drinks, talk with people, flirt. I also miss a strong man in my bed but then, that's what relationships are about, to concede.
