Desde hace tiempo de amor no me hablas
usando el tiempo futuro ya no
ya no sirve decirnos de nuevo te quiero amor.
por que, tu sonreir, cada ma�ana, ya no es para mi.
por que, no tengo ya, nada de ti.
cuando se ama el final se presiente.
se nota un frio tan frio tan triste
como en un film se adivina la escena.
se sabe cuando la historia concluye
si con excusas mis ojos rehuyes
dime que me amas
y ya desde ma�ana nunca m�s...

ya desde hoy no te vere

D�jame que te cuente lime�a
del sue�o que evoca la memoria
del viejo puente, del rio y de la Alameda.
Jasminez en el pelo, y rosas en la cara
orgullosa caminaba la flor de la canela
derramaba lisura y a su paso dejaba ...

Life is bigger
It's bigger than you
And you are not me
The lengths that I will go to
The distance in your eyes
Oh no I've said too much
I set it up

That's me in the corner
That's me in the spotlight
Losing my religion
Trying to keep up with you
And I don't know if I can do it
Oh no I've said too much
I haven't said enough
I thought that I heard you laughing
I thought that I heard you sing
I think I thought I saw you try

I wish I could just make you turn around
Turn around and see me cry
There's so much I need to say to you
So many reasons why
You're the only one
Who really knew me at all

A is going to Taboga, I'm wanting to go with him, but E would be working in E's apartment, but I really
want to go away of everything.
T still doesn't answer the phone.
E called me.
R is arriving at 10:30am from Ecuador.
RE is arriving at 1:00pm from Honduras.
I miss them so much.

Aug th 30th, I'm 30 years old, and still, feel like Bambito was yesterday.
I wonder if we some day would overcome that day.
T gave me two gifts, everything so cool so far.
Problems started, because I said O that T would'nt like to go to the boat trip.
T. called, as if nothing had happened, T's mother told me she had saw him rare, as bored, or something.
I don't want to be with T, wondering if what T wants to do if gave me false hope, so at 12:00am, T can tell me "it's over" as
T always do.
I felt asleep.
T. calls one time, I told T I want to keep sleeping.
T calls again, telling me if I'm with somebody else, he freaks out.
I call T, T don't answer the phone.
4:00am, I call D.
D and I went to Kitaro's
return home at 6:00am

Everything seemed so fine in the day before my birthday, till T leaved me at the University.
He made a comment about all ending soon.
That really pissed me off.
Why then no to finish, why to wait, I started to go sad, the project was well received by my teacher.
T. went to the sauna. I went to A. house, E has been cooking for me to celebrate my birthday.
E was so WOOOOFFFFF, AS ALWAYS.
At midnight I went to GIL's, JC put "las ma�anitas", T arrived and started to become overfriendly, I felt very bad.

Everything seemed so fine in the day before my birthday, till T leaved me at the University.
He made a comment about all ending soon.
That really pissed me off.
Why then no to finish, why to wait, I started to go sad, the project was well received by my teacher.
T. went to the sauna. I went to A. house, E has been cooking for me to celebrate my birthday.
E was so WOOOOFFFFF, AS ALWAYS.
At midnight I went to GIL's, JC put "las ma�anitas", T arrived and started to become overfriendly, I felt very bad.

Well, seems that the trick behind T's behaviour is that T's planning to end the relationship after my birthday on Aug the 30th.
T told me so after an argument about the trip to stone's.

T's behaviour (caring, loving, etc, etc) raised a lot of suspicion.
a week that way could T be loving me again?

Everything ok till I decide to return with T. (Yeahh, I know, I sucks)
Well, JC seemed distant (my fault), but he's such a cool guy wish I could keep as a closer friend.
D was ok too, I had a long talk with him an hour ago, we had a very long talk, he's very mature and so
cute (he even believes in God jajaja, but well, nobody's perfect), E, well, I saw E for the first time since
the last time (that sounded weird), but he looked as cute as ever, was very fond, we talked about K's job
and stuff, also enjoyed a dinner in his friend's house. Well wish my birthday would be spent with them, I wish
it would be T instead but it seems T has his owns plans, and I'm not included.
J knows who I am, wonder why he had'nt asked, well, meanwhile I'm enjoying the company, but I seem to detect
a hint of interest beyond one-stand, better cut that off before it's too late.
Well, feel down and happy, happy because there's people who can fill the emptyness I feel, sad because T no longer
fullfill that, guess nothing last forever, the question is when I would say "it's over, move on", seems I'm not able to say so,
and I keep missing the good days, the company, the warmth, the feeling loved feeling (should check my grammar more often).